Faicai life,How?

This is gonna be a whining entry.................

Feel so useless day by day. Feel like a faicai. I do nothing at all recently. All I fancy is to eat, sleep and drama. Since I got into Secondary school, I became so fcked up. Project , late. Homework, late/incomplete. Attendance , out of 100 days, I'm only in school for 50 or even lesser. Exams, last minute revision. Sometimes I feel like I'm so bai kah. I'm so spoilt and used to buying something without even thinking if I'm gonna use it or not.
I'm used to all the bad habits I got from Malaysia. Teachers wouldn't even care because I'm a local. But here in Perth, If my attendance is less that 80%, they might even kick me out of the country. That depressed feeling after I do something stupid is killing me. I don't want to be like this. Everyone keeps telling me, "You're lazy because your mind says you are. If you really want to get rid of this habit, you can." Bullshit it is. I've been trying so hard not to be so lazy and disorganized but I just can't.

Motivated myself to clean up my room, It's the third week already and I'm still hopping out of my room because my floor is all littered by my bags and books and bits of papers and notices. But still, I blame the room for not being big enough, never blaming myself for not cleaning up.

After finishing one assignment, the next comes. And my teachers love to give it all in one week, and due it the week after. And knowing that I'll be having golf for first period on mondays, which means leaving home 1 hour earlier,and golf last period on wednesdays, which means reaching home 1-2 hours ++ later, makes me feel like I've got not enough time. So then, I'll be whining to my parents how life is so hard here blablabla, end call, procrastinate again wtf. -.-

With this kind of attitude, I told my dad I'm gonna take the lawyer course. FUCKMYLIFE i hope the world ends. Yes, I'm freaking kiasu. I hate it when someone is better than me and I blame the teachers for not teaching me properly.

Bye. 

54KG

Yes it is true. I am 54kg. And I'm here to confess what's happening.
Before coming to Perth, I was between 43-47 KG. After knowing that I've got Tuberculosis, I had to do millions of blood tests and had to take 13 pills everynight. it's EVERY NIGHT. So, when my friends and family noticed that i gained so much of weight, they're all saying , "Oh,must be the bloodtests that made you gain weight, cause you're producing new blood cells." some said,"must be your medicines. Some medicines make you gain weight" . But in my opinion, i think I ate too much and a little too late for dinner. My guardian serves dinner at 7.00pm ++. And I'm a horrible slow eater so by the time i finish my dinner, it's already 8. After 3 months of blaming myself why am i so fat, my doctor told me,
"It is a good sign if you're gaining weight because the TB virus is not eating you up anymore." and I was like,DAFUGGGGG? so I blamed myself for being fat but actually the reality is that I'm curing? okay, this seriously sucks.
You wouldn't want to know how bad I felt. ew.

Look how chubby my face is. My hair is my lifesaver yoh

Anyways, to celebrate that I'm finally curing my TB, I shall share my brownies in mug recipe (: UH-HUH now you know why I'm so fat. ngek
What you need are like, stuff you can get easily from your pantry (:
1/4 cup of sugar(i used caster sugar. works fine too)
1/4 cup of flour
2 tablespoons of cocoa powder
2 tablespoons of olive oil(i used canola oil*vegetable oil*,cause i cant stand the smell of olive oil.LOL)
3 tablespoons of water

Mix the dry ingredients first, which is the sugar, flour, and cocoa powder. Mix it to get rid of the lumps. Then, add in the water and oil. Stir well. Put it in the microwave for 1 minute and 30 seconds. Use a skewer/fork/knife to test if it's done. If it comes out clean, you're ready to eat it :D Oh, and put some ice cream on top . It'll taste even better !

bitches cray cray :D

This recipe is the bomb. It's like, instant brownies. HAHAHA.

Anyways, All the best to the people who're taking PMR starting from today (: If i were still in Malaysia, I'd be in the same situation, but too bad im not. HEH. lucky me eh.